Is Pleasure
She’s a sweet mean girl with a complicated life. Vengeance keeps her spirits high to succeed. Strong faith keeps her peace and patient. In this journey, she might have fallen so many times, but she get up stronger and faster each time. Through pain, she learns and grows.
Date:
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Time:
10:29 PM
Don’t play with my heart
I just need a lil peace from all these thoughts. Maybe go for a spin in the car, smoke on sheesha while enjoying tea halia or maybe just hangout at my secret hideout.
Life is all about the choices we made. For some, they choose to be negative and alone which I don’t understand why. Sometimes, we can’t get away from fate, from meeting psychotic people like I always did who doesn’t seems to understand.
Someone told me, there are 2 things in life –Fate and Choices. Fate is written but choices can change your fate. I like the way she believe in, makes me think I must have been lucky to survive this 21 years of life for the choices I’ve made. okay, I’m crapping.
I hope to start my fasting tomorrow. Just want some peace of mind and heart.
Labels: life
Date:
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Time:
8:25 PM
The silent moments
My silence doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten. I’ll make it up to you when the right time comes.
My uncertainties bother me a lot. I just want to know the truth for once at least. And, I hate empty promises cause it kept me wondering sincerity.
Taufiq was around last Tuesday. Why am I not on front counter duty that time?! He’s so damn cute.
My rashes have healed but it leaves a horrible scars.
I’m on MC today. I’ve been having red dry eyes, stomach upsets, headaches, and basically, I need a break.
Broke. Haizz… next month will be OT all the way and fasting month is coming.
AMP programmes have been suspended due to H1N1. CRAP!
December vacation to Bangkok-phuket? Anyone?
Date:
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Time:
8:17 PM
Late nights, sheeshas, Burger Ramlee, A&W, Heavy Traffic, Twin towers
Our 1st lunch
My rashes on the 2nd day!
KL city, busy street, heavy traffic
Late hangout sheeshaing while sick!We had this challenge who had the most smoke.
The girls
The twin tower (again). LOL.
Us with the twin tower
After a long walk, we found our way to Pavillion
Model for Cotton On, FOS and Diadora
We got lost and found some interesting places.
Empty shop houses
Our Last shot before we make our way back home.
The girls
The twin tower (again). LOL.
Us with the twin tower
After a long walk, we found our way to Pavillion
Model for Cotton On, FOS and Diadora
We got lost and found some interesting places.
Empty shop houses
Our Last shot before we make our way back home.It had been a great 4 days 3 nights trip to KL though some things cocked up.
On the second day, I woke up with horrible rashes all over my body (even my face) and fever. Complained to the hotel manager and got our refund. Ironically, I’m the only one who had to experience all that.
Everything else was fun though. We explored the whole of KL.
I miss ramlee burger. And I can’t believe I’ll be getting back to work tomorrow.
On the second day, I woke up with horrible rashes all over my body (even my face) and fever. Complained to the hotel manager and got our refund. Ironically, I’m the only one who had to experience all that.
Everything else was fun though. We explored the whole of KL.
I miss ramlee burger. And I can’t believe I’ll be getting back to work tomorrow.
Bali or bangkok next trip??
Labels: freedom, friendship, travel
Date:
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Time:
11:29 PM
It’s been a wild ride and I gotta stay strong.
So…some updates…
the accident
Henderson wave
Mary wedding dinner
Well, my dad spoke to me for the 1st time since the accident. JI got a better job offer. But I’m not sure if I’m ready for a change. I enjoy working with my colleagues, they are my family.
My colleague gave me Maduka Honey and Vitamin C tablets. He was concern over my dry skin condition. Who would even bother about my dry skin?! Sometimes, we expect so much from those we cared and loved. He’s the sweetest thing. By the way, don’t get the wrong idea, he’s like a dad to me.
I miss my best friend. I just don’t know why.
I miss my cousin too.
I miss zikri, it’s been months he came. I miss watching youtube with him.
Time and money. When we got the time, we got no money. Vice versa. Errmmphh..
I lost myself lately and honestly, I haven’t found myself back. I never thought I would feel this way again. Hurt and confuse. When you started to trust, that’s when you start to fall. I just want honesty, but even so, my instinct is clear and contradicting. Someday, I’ll find the truth or maybe not. I’ll leave, move on, face the fact, endure the pain and till then, you don’t need to know anything cause you don’t care and I won’t bother. What will be left is just a memory, just like the other episodes of life.
It will be the longest weekend. I’ll be off to KL tomorrow. And, guess what, I haven’t even packed a thing yet. I’m not really excited but I’ll try to have fun.
Date:
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Time:
12:59 AM
Worst
Nothing seems right, nothing at all.
I kept thinking positive, thought the next day would be better.
It never happen.
I lost my hope, never felt so hurt before.
I just can't stop crying.
I wonder, if someday, I needed help, will anyone be there for me?
Labels: hurt