January was a busy boring start for a new year for me. I was rushing for Major Project, my last final assignment for my Diploma. At the same time, I had my internship at Zuellig Pharma, which I had gain a few good and bad experiences on working life.

I remembered very well, on the night of my birthday, alone and felt the worst shit ever. I spent the whole night watching ‘PS. I love you’ and crying. Pathetic.

I was filled with awful memories, wasn’t much of fear but painful reminder of the past. I had the most awful birthday but I was thankful to God. What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger.

By mid of February, I had all settled on my 3 years of poly. I remembered my last day in school, having my last important ever presentation, and having Rhyh overnighting over my place. I felt so relief, but somehow, I wish I had work a little harder. No point crying over spilled milk.

Somehow Rhy and I got closer. Sweet.

March was a lil emotional for me. I was too disappointed over the decision I get without pity and justice. I promised myself, I wouldn’t turn my back again. That would be my last.

God has better plan for me and I’m definitely working towards what I want.

April was the start of my part time job as a student care teacher. I wouldn’t have thought that I’ll take up this job but I’ve enjoyed it. Having children around me really widen up my perspective of life. Look at them, they are young, cute, pure, and simply honest. Yes, they can be pain in the ass too but at the end of the day, it makes you smile.

I lost a friend but I understood from the start.

May, Graduation day! I almost thought I wouldn’t get through this diploma. I was struggling, I wasn’t focus and I had a bad start. But I’m glad it was all over now, though I only stripe through.
June, I simply can’t stand people who get too emotional and interrupt my life!

July was a start of a sparks, a sweet one. The one that makes me can’t sleep at night, no appetite to eat, and smile to myself always. Hehehe. It was one thing lead to another but it was just a fantasy or maybe not?

August was bittersweet. I can’t accept my failure for the driving test because I let my nervousness control me. I wasted so much for this, and I let it all go down the drain.

September, my first ever Teachers’ Day celebration. Sweet to have kids who look up on you. It was also the month I’ve been missing so much, Ramadhan but I didn’t make full use of it. I was busy, out of focus…I’m disappointed. I didn’t have much excitement to celebrate the eid at all. I was planning not to celebrate with my family at all since, my brother will be driving my parents around. I should have drive too, if I had passed!

I had a surprise call too from someone I least expected. I almost faint! Hahaha. It was the best surprise and my mood shoot up. I still can’t believe it till now.

Early October, I was in good mood. I gave in my pride and ego, followed my parents and brother all celebrate Eid. I just felt that time is precious; no one knows when will it be your last time. My brother’s driving sucks, like he thinks he’s lewis Hamilton!

Unfortunately and sadly, I didn’t get to accomplish my dreams. It was so close, yet far but it’s alright. It could have been but I didn’t have the gut and was insecured. I just don’t want it to end. Everything that had happened was simply too sweet for me. It’s enough. God knows what He’s doing.

I passed my driving! My parents weren’t that excited, whatever. But I’m happy, supper happy.

November, I signed up for gym membership and tried to go gym as often. It feels good to be active.

The time that I’ve been waiting for finally came. I was pretty nervous, but it all happens like a blink of the eye. I recovered well and bored staying home for 2 weeks! I lost 5 kg in 5 days for eating porridge but gain as much too after that. haha.

December
I just had to do it, to let go to release myself from this prison. My expectations are high and I can’t hang on anymore. Sometimes, you just got to be selfish, to save your own butt.

I came back to work after 2 weeks of MC. It feels so weird but I’m glad. 2 weeks, I felt so dead. But, it was the last month. It had always been my decision for I have to move on for something better. I know, it might be risky.

I don’t know why but I really feel so empty and dead since the operation. I’ve lost the energy and I don’t know where’s the strength in me anymore.

KL-Genting trip was good. They say, traveling brings out the true colours of people.

I’m searching something within, maybe it is the sense of love and peace.

Overview
It had been a good year for me, not much of achievement but it amazed me how much I had learnt, stronger and less emotional. Life is too short for regrets, so I’m living my life with all the positive energy and to the fullest.

I read through my past resolutions, my entire entries in my blog since May 2007 and every single thing that happened. Gosh, so much had past, and when I see myself again in the mirror, I see a different person from what I was in 2007.

It’s no time to worry now; it’s time to solve.

2009 Resolutions

The Girls

My filipinno cousin...hehehe...(relax eh rhy)

I forget my diet, don't care!

Selamat Pengantin Baru...
His cute cute face

Xmas Party At Work with the Kids
Catching up with Rhyh

Just the 3 of us, going off to KL
Yeah...i LOOVVE hUGss....hehe

My shy boy
huh?