Hehehe…yes..it’s true, I’m back in the gym! I’m trying to fulfill my last resolution of the year. InsyaAllah.

Everything seems well, falling in place. This next 2 months will be great, full of planned exciting events. I just hope everything goes smoothly.

Anyway, I bought Zikri something. Isn’t I so thoughtful and nice?! It’s funny that he has everything except for something important…so…I bought him a set of books! I know he’ll grow up to become clever and cute just like the aunty…hehehe.

I’m so tired, I know, tomorrow, I’ll wake up feeling just like an old lady!

Labels: Dreams, Family, freedom, life

Labels: Dreams

Labels: birthday, Family, shopping

Singapore-Major traffic accident at Loyang Ave

A major accident happen at the Loyang Ave/Old Tampines Road junction at about
3:30PM, involving 2 big lorries, one SBS Transit single-deck bus and a Honda
Stream and a red car.The red car was sandwiched in between the Honda Stream and
the lorry behind.The driver of the red car was killed on the spot with such
impact.The lorry hit the lorry which hit the red car and cause it to impact with
the Honda Stream and the SBS Transit bus would not be affected it is so heavy so
the red car would be unfortunate to be there at that time of accident.Loyang Ave
is dangerous during both dry and wet weather as vehicles from Changi/Pasir Ris
area would hit the gas to speed down the road.

Yesterday, my brother told me about his friend who died of a car accident. Being only 26, with a wife and 5 year old child, it’s just so tragic. I’ve heard accidents, sickness, and deaths before but I don’t know why I feel so bothered by the news or death lately. Maybe because I’ve just had my license, and watching the video above, I just feel so tragic and awful. All this while, I’ve drove with instructors, I remember a number of incidents which could have lead to accidents.

I pray that no one I cared and loved ever to involve in such accidents or any tragedy. It broke my heart, to see that car crash and it’s not his fault.

Sometimes, I feel haunted, even when I sleep, slightest noise could wake me up. My heart beats faster each time, and I won’t sleep even if I’m tired. At times, I shiver in fear for no reason. And that’s a secret.

Labels: Family, life, love.driving

Lately, I’ve been curious over my roots, my racial identity, Bowean. I’ve heard the good and bad racial rumors about Boyanese which most of the time, I find it funny. Hehe. I kinda did some researches online, and I found out a few interesting facts I never knew. Other than our favourite Tongkol (HAHAHA), I realized boyanese community is very widely global.

Things are pretty out of place. But it’ll be fixed. InsyaAllah.

My legs are aching badly.

Labels: community, Family

I’m seriously getting bored of my looks. The recent pictures I took, make me realized, I hadn’t changed much since so long. My hair look sucks, flat. My skin getting paler and I definitely getting fatter from this hari raya!

So…I’m planning for tanning, dieting (hopefully I don’t gain weight again), and thinking of highlighting my hair too.

My parents don’t seem to be excited at all about the big news I told them. Whatever.

My brother coming back tomorrow, and I have a plan…hehehe…which I doubt will work out. Depends. We'll see...

Labels: plans

There’s really nothing to express my feelings better than just simply, Alhamdulilah. Somehow, this is what I’ve been waiting for, all my life. All my effort, my money, my energy, had all paid off. Thank God.

Anyway, it was funny and weird to have a TP who can really talk and joke around while having driving test. We had this conversation about Boyanese culture (which he had guessed I was boyanese from my father’s name). This includes the utmost famous thing about boyanese, which is having funny and cute nicknames! Hahaha…It must be the Boyan Clan that made me pass this. Hahaha.

It’s the next step now…

Labels: driving

Labels: friendship

Okay, it’s actually funny but gosh, I feel so embarrassed. The van stopped just beside my car, just to look at me, laugh and say words I can’t figured out about me wearing gloves. Hahaha…IDIOT! Not happy issit?!

Cool pe, pakai gloves driving. Dah macam nak street fight, hehehe…. By the way, I
need to wear gloves because I have sweaty hands!

Anyway, I seriously feel so BLUR these days. I had good sleep, but my head and body seems like lost of focus. Maybe it’s the blocked nose! My driving sucks today, I hate it! I kept forgetting to off my signals! Hahaha.

FIZA is so Selengerrrrr……!!!!!

Labels: driving, sick

It’s alright, the memories are strong enough to keep me crazy and alive.

I’ve been waking up feeling like dying these few days. God knows how painful my throat is, with irritating blocked nose and crazy irregular fever. I just have to go on, and hope I gain back my health soon before the important day.

I really wish I have my own car, with a valid license and most importantly, with a good sense of directions. I just come to realize I’m super bad at directions, actually, I don’t even know the way around!

I need to stay on the ground. Stay focus.

I need some chill out at the coffee bean and soak in the sun!

Labels: freedom, Love, sick

PS: thanks for the teddy, now i have a teddy to hug! yay!

Labels: eid, Family

I can’t stand this but I have to let it out. My mum talks a lot about my brother to anyone, to everyone. “Razi ade kereta, Nak beli benda, beli dgn Razi kat courts. Murah-murah…Pergi lar rumah Razi, dekat je….Bla bla bla…” Maybe, I sound jealous, or whatever. I don’t need to tell about myself much, you see, you judge. Nothing about me that my mum talks about, the only thing is to called my name…which not even my name… sometimes, I wonder why she called me that, instead of my real name. She even forget about my name…seriously…no kidding. I’m no body afterall…

But well, I just want justice. She loves to compare people and what really makes me pissed off, she loves to tell people that my sis in law is not good enough. Every thing else, she blames it on her. Honestly, I’ve nothing against my sis though sometimes, I always think that she’s the reason for brother’s decision. I realized, I’ve been influenced by my mum to hate her. For the 2 days of hari raya outing, really makes me remembered back that she’s a nice person afterall.

I wish my mum could see that….she’s being unfair…

Labels: Family

There’s so much that had happened since last week. I was high like I’m touching the sky, then it was all down the drain, mostly, I though I was dreaming, maybe it was just a dream.

The Eid celebration was unexpected. I was sick, but I didn’t let that be a reason to stay home. Instead, I put aside all my ego, hatred and anger. I went out with my family and my brother drove. There’s so much that had changed my mind about it. It was my parents’ will, and amazingly adorable zikri. I know, life too short and I don’t even know when it’s gonna be the last.

Zikri has been different. He’s so much more cuter and smarter. It just melts my heart when he smiles, and whenever he kisses me, it’s like heaven. Children are just magical. I want baby!!! (okay, I’m kidding)

I don’t know what’s wrong, I’m confuse of the sudden change, some things are just better off not knowing.

Back to work tomorrow, focus on driving, and life continue…

Anyway, my brother’s driving is dangerously sucks, I’m better! (just agree with it, let me feel better at least). Hehe…

Last but not least….SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Labels: eid, Family